Life: if you don't hold on you'll lose everything.

Life has never moved so fast as it has in the past 6 months. I've been thinking A LOT lately about where I was this time last year. Not just in an physical environment (which I hated this time last year) but who I was spiritually, emotionally, who I was friends with, where I saw my life going. Let's just say that it's completely different. I know longer know that person from a year ago and I think God is just a Crazy Amazing God to have known who I was back then...he probably chuckled a great deal listening to me talk and walk the way I wanted to knowing that in a year I would be a new, amazing, much less spastic me! 

Not saying that I lost who I was completely from my old way of living...I'm still that angry Jersey girl who will pull out all the stops to help the ones she loves; I will quote all movies/shows/SNL even if you don't know it; I still shake my fist; and I still love that person. But I'm much more the girl that you can bring home to your parents then I was before. I have a lore more CLOSE relationships instead of just relationships. I also have become a stronger person in faith, I can see why God wanted me to go through those "bad spells," make those wrong turns, and get hurt. It all lead to what I am now...and I know everyone knows that's what happens it life but it's a whole other story to actually admit that I was in a horrible place last year...and God and my new found friends and my family were my escape. 

I also realized I should NEVER be in charge of events. Like...ever! If I ever try to, I need you stop me because I don't have the patience and the "over-all-big-picture type of mind" to plan. Check party planner off my list of job careers.